rachelbymustang!

There’s just still too much running through my head right now.

And I miss the day’s when I could catch the bus up and hang for hours throughout the night and nothing would matter, not the fact that i haven’t slept in nearly 2 day’s or that I had work early, just being around you was good enough for me. Secretly. As you entered the room which contained me for the first time and our eye’s met, maybe wsomethign was felt. I hung out with your brother for months and that was all. I remember when i used to come into your room for cigarettes and random chats. I don’t remember quite clearly what happerened and from what i seem to remember, we always stood at a distance. I remember that I always admired something about you. I wasn’t sure what I wanted. I was a lost cause in my opinion, living each day as it came, no plans, no future, no clue. My soft spot for you grew over the months I spent in Eureka. I’ve never been interested in a guy with long hair. It was new. Despite being the way I was. Socially awkward, shy and annoying I tried to show ho interested I was but it never came across that way. Spending most of our tiem on the balcony or playing rock band, my attraction grew untill one day, I left. I moved away for a better life before heading shortly back we lost contact and my hometown was empty with out you and your brother. Thing’s where dfferent and I tried talking to you. It lasted a while before your brother moved away to America and we stopped talking due to how strongly your feelings were for me. I wished I used a chance back in Eureka to make this happern. But I didnt.

You stayed in my heart and my mind for 3 years. I never forgot about you, i saw you briefly here and there but it was the same. Nothing was. The mention of your name, a picture or maybe seeing you walk past me at work was enough to make my body seize up. Your brother moved back to England shortly and you went to live with him which made things harder. But I never gave up. I left you there, in the back on my mind until it felt right.

I’m so glad we found each other again. 86.7 miles away.

“I bid farewell to those forsaken eyes. But I would hold you when theres nothing left, I’ll never let you down”